Oh look, another “sorry I’ve been gone so long” post
Let’s be honest, I’ve written this sort of post more times than I care to remember (and I’m not going to self-flagellate myself by going back to look for them). I do feel bad when I haven’t posted for a while but the reality of it is…sometimes life is hard and blogging is just a faintly nagging responsibility in the back of my brain.
Lately there’s the oft-overwhelming murmurings of racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, Islamophobia, and a whole lot of other -isms and -phobias that seem to have manifested in the form of a human-shaped yam that is now the American president. There are times when I get so righteously angry at not just the blatant hatred but also the ambivalence of so many people who “don’t want to take a side”. But anger is taxing and sometimes I need to hide away and play some games or watch some TV/YouTube videos.
Then there’s a variety of personal issues that I often don’t bring up. Okay, I do talk about my carpal tunnel quite a bit, but it’s been over a year since I had it and I’m still suffering from the after-effects. Two recent setbacks haven’t helped; one where I took a nap without my wrist braces and woke up to tingling hands, and another when I missed several days of physio stretches during a business trip due to long work hours. There was the end of a romantic relationship back in May that hit me very hard for a long time and it’s only in the past month or two that I’ve begun to feel completely over it. I moved into a new house only to find that the air conditioner was broken and the previous owner refused to pay to have it fixed. And then there was the news that my mom gave me at the beginning of the month that she has cancer. It’s all been enough to make me feel overwhelmed.
I wish I could be like some of the bloggers pretty much said “2016 was shit, but now we have 2017 to look forward to!” I’m not completely pessimistic but my optimism tends to be tempered by skepticism and past experiences (which is also why I don’t do new year’s resolutions). So while I don’t think that the arbitrarily-chosen beginning of a new year will magically make things better, there are some things that make me look towards the future. There are many people who are also very angry about the injustices that our world still contains and they are raring for a fight. My carpal tunnel is certainly better than it was a year ago and I’m hopeful that it will be gone within another year. I’ll be taking the previous owner of my house to court next week and I’m pretty confident that I have a good case against him. My mom’s prognosis is very good (the type of cancer is very treatable and the doctor expects it to be gone afterwards) and the only expense she needs to worry about is whether she wants to pay $13 to have a volunteer drive her to and from the hospital for her treatment. I have never been more thankful for universal healthcare than I am right now. And last but certainly not least, I have a steady job that lets me work from home, a house that’s all mine, a fuzzy dog who keep me smiling and laughing, a best friend who spends time with me every day, and video games and the internet to keep me entertained and connected.
I’m not looking forward to online dating again though. Ugh. That can wait a few more months, thank you. 😛
More blog posts to come in the future and about gaming again. I have to tell you all about Factorio, Event, and Osiris: New Dawn after all. 🙂